Friday, January 21, 2011
Ha! Went to a show tonight, I haven't gone to one in foreverrrrr! Local bands are okay, but when big bands come here and play, that's a different story. Abandon All Ships and I See Stars played tonight, it was epic! Of course, there are always assholes who try to start a pit in the front where all the chicks are, so I had to push them all away with a friend, but all in all, it was a fun night.
Well, me and my, idk what she is now, girlfriend/close friend/bff, have been together for 2+ years. Just last summer was when we stopped seeing each other, but she doesn't want to let go of me. In December was when we completed 2 years. I don't do the whole dating thing, I'm more of a serious relationship person. We're not technically going out, but we're together, keeping it down low for a bit. It's hard to explain why, but it's something we have to do for a bit. Just yesterday we had a little dispute, it was dumb. I just can't go on to another relationship, she can't either, but she wants to have some fun, nothing sexual, but just to have fun going places. I don't care really, I have my fun, I'm always out with friends, but I'm not really into the whole 'messing with hearts' game. I just stick to one person. In a few months we'll be seeing each other more and being more productive together, but it's agonizing. We all hate waiting, I for one don't have the best patience in the world, I can only tolerate some. Part of me always wants to jump the gun and rush to it, but another part tells me to just relax and wait. We rushed in the beginning and it ruined our relationship, so maybe I should go with patience?
Tuesday, January 18, 2011
We've all been in a relationship; either serious or not. I always flirted with girls towards the end of middle school and beginning high school years. Relationships weren't my thing back then, I just wanted to have fun, chill with my friends and mess with girls; not really sexually, just flirting. This all soon changed after sophomore year, during that summer, a friend of mine was talking to this girl, who he later on introduced me to her. Him and her started dating, and I became friends with her. He left her in less than a week and kind of came on to me to talk to. We started talking for months, then it came to the point when I would always see her in school. I had feelings for her, deep feelings. She wasn't like any other girl friend(just friend) I had before; my knees actually gave in and at times I would not know what to say. I went over once to meet her parents and hang out with her and her best friend, who was a gay guy. We all had a good time and went to the mall. I had left my book bag at her house since we walked to her house from our school. On Sunday, I went over to get it, knocked on the door and she answered and invited me in. She was alone; we stood there for a bit, I did not know what to say, but she went and grabbed my book bag. I received it and put it down, she looked at me kind of confused, I looked her in the eyes and said "would you like to go out with me?" she smiled so happily and replied with a "yes!". We hugged... then kissed.
Everyday it seems like I am faced with a new struggle. I'm always sitting at home, alone. There is never nothing for me to do. I would rather be sitting in class or stuck at work than being here everyday with not one thing to do. I call places for work, I fill out applications, but not one calls back; others get hired at the same job I applied for or just another job. Why can't that be me? I'm sick and tired of not working, others hate it, but I'd rather be working than wasting my life away laying in bed, or sitting on a chair. I have to help pay some bills too. My cell phone doesn't pay itself and the service sure ain't free. There are times when I can't go out with my friends. I don't have enough money to go out places, or just go out to buy something. Don't get me wrong, I still hang out with them, but we don't go out when I'm with them. I feel the same way I did when I was younger; everyone always had every new toy, while I was stuck with the same truck and car. I just need something to brighten up my days.
Well, I'd like to introduce myself. My name is Steven, I'm 18 and currently attending my county college to major in Criminal Justice; I would like to become a police officer. As like everyone else, I have goals that I would like to fulfill. I am not employed at the moment, but I am trying to find a job. Enough of that, I enjoy hanging out with my friends and having a good time. I'm the one in the group of friends who always tries to make everything better and funny, I'm the funny guy, goofing around bringing smiles to everyone's face. I like to have a good time, but I also like it when my friends are having a good time. It is good when everyone is happy and in a good mood. I'm not always like that, though.